Ghosts & Vodka

ghostandvodka @ 2009-11-15T23:39:00

2009-11-15T06:11:48Z

Hi everybody!

The workshop was soooo wonderful. I had a lot of fun. I met a lot of new people and it helped me "expand my network". I did 4 readings yesterday, workshop today followed by 3 readings, and i have 4 readings tomorrow before I head home.

I am in my dream zone. That is so exciting! I am at the bottom of my dream ladder, but I am actually in the zone now. I don't know how to explain it. I can't help but feel total gratitude resonate through me in everything I do. My life feels like such a blessing :)
Mom and I went to a chocolate fondue cafe today. We ordered a platter of candy, marshmellows, and fresh fruits, and dipped it in chocolate and ate it. After that we went to a nice greek restaurant.

I love my mother. She is my biggest cheerleader :)

All my readings so far have been so wonderful. Actually, there was one that was not really done in the best of my ability. That's because I took a stupid nap between, and it totally messed me up. I felt "out of it" for the first half of the reading :( Oh well.

I am quite anxious to get back to Kamloops because I have so much to get organized as soon as I am home.

1. School. Ugh. This week: Math midterm, english midterm, biology lab exam, write up chemistry lab report, do biology writing assignment.
2. Schedule in over 10 phone and in person readings with the people on my waiting list.
3. Plan radio show the third. Hopefully I won't mess up so damn much this time! Aaahh!
4. Organize private-home workshop for Kamloops client.
5. E-mail back website dude! Yay for www.malavika.com being MINE.

I think that's it. Schools done soon and I ain't going back next semester so I have to just make it through and do better with that.

I am so exhausted right now. I just need to sleep. Up tomorrow at 8:00am to start readings till 12:30. Then flying back to loops.

<3 I love you. This wouldn't be real without your support.

ghostandvodka @ 2009-11-14T00:20:00

2009-11-13T06:51:53Z

Tomorrow I am going to be living my dream :) It has taken so long and so much hard work to get here, but I have never once regretted it, I have never once questioned it, I have never once wondered "what if this doesn't work out for me?"

So here I am, and I am proud of myself, and I am happy and I am so incredibly excited!
Hello, new life!

We arrive in Van city around 12:00 and I begin my readings from 3:00-8:00.
Workshop on Saturday till 2:00, and readings from 4:00-8:00
Sunday: Readings from 8:30-12:30

And other than that, my radio show was so jacked up today! I could barely talk. I suddenly became so aware of my tongue. It was weird. I got all the technical stuff down though, which was great, but the talking proved to be quite difficult. I was nervous and at times I totally blanked out! Miss Prescot, would just say "Malavika, calm down. You know this stuff."

Well, I can only get better! Hehe. That's a good way to look at things.

Anyway I'm hitting the bed early tonight to prepare for my amazing gift of a weekend. I'll take lots of pictures. I have to go meet Miss Prescot now. She wants to talk to me :)

Have a great weekend yalls.

ghostandvodka @ 2009-11-13T09:18:00

2009-11-12T17:19:12Z

The Malavika show is on today.

Playlist:

1. I can feel a hot one – Manchester orchestra

2. Your rocky spine – great lake swimmers

3. No one would riot for less – bright eyes

4. Your English is good –tokyo police club

5. I’ll believe in anything – wolf parade

6. On my own – the used

7. Big bird in a small cage – Patrick watson

8. Gabriel – lamb

9. Another bag of bones – Kevin devine

10. Peach, plum, pear – Joanna newsom

11. Skinny love – bon iver

12. Honey and the moon – joseph Arthur

13. Maybe not – cat power

14. So long, so long – dashboard confessional

15. The trapeze swinger – iron and wine

16. I was born (A unicorn) – the unicorns

17. Let’s get known – the unicorns

18. Spring cleaning – son ambulance and bright eyes

19. Life is beautiful – six am

20. Naked as we came – iron and wine.

ghostandvodka @ 2009-11-12T18:39:00

2009-11-12T01:20:45Z

Okay remember that guy who I went on that very scary date with?!
Well...I ran into him. UGH. I was in Nandos having lunch with my mom and he comes in with some -I want to be raped also- girl. He totally knew it was me. He kept looking, but was obviously scared because my mom was there.
I was like...Oh my god. Mom. Lets go.
But obviously, she was like "no. I want to get a good look at him" and she was just staring at him, Anyway, I gave him a look, and then left, and my mom came out later.
He texted me saying

"U seemed like so hurted yesterday, but i tell you U something, I am so hurted"

ghostandvodka @ 2009-11-12T14:44:00

2009-11-11T21:24:50Z

Wow, now suddenly I feel quite overwhelmed. I am almost scared to open up my inbox because I get so many emails from people wanting workshop and readings. And missed calls...

And all the while I was just watching "The Hills." That Kristen girl is so pretty.

bksdlhfs;ldfs there is so much to organize at the moment:

- Send out e-mails to people coming to workshop - a reminder.
- Send out e-mails to people for in-person readings this weekend, reminding them of their time.
- E-mail a billion people telling them they are now on the waiting the list for Vancouver readings.
- Sort out who is on the 'I only want an in person reading' waiting list and those who are in the 'I don't mind if I have a phone reading' waiting list and the 'I want you to get skype so we can have a skype reading.'
- Organize the 'I am from Kamloops and I want a reading with you when you get back' people.
I have not yet made bookings for people for this coming week because I dont know how that week looks yet, and I have so many tests and things to do. I kind of regret not booking them in anyway, because now it means I have to deal with all of that when I get back.

- Print off stuff for workshop.
- Make compilation cd for workship with music too.

And then on TOP of that I have to:

- Do my biology writing assignment
- Start my 1200 word english essay
- Study for my biology lab test
- Study for my english midterms :(
- Plan tomorrows radio show.

O_O
And what have I been doing for the last hour? Oh yes, I've been watching...THE HILLS. THE HILLS. Are you kidding me! ? :P This has got to stop. Miss Prescot says "Malavika, you wanted this kind of life style, so now you have to make some changes. The you that you were before is not the you that you must become in order to have your dream life. If that were the case you would have been there already. Now is your chance. Make some life changes. Set some new rules"

Ok, it helped to write it all down though. This is what I am going to do:

1. school
2. workshop
3. school
4. workshop
5. school
6. radio
7. workshop
8. school
9. driving
10. school
11. workshop

and on and on till infinity.

ghostandvodka @ 2009-11-12T12:14:00

2009-11-11T18:55:18Z

I am unsure of what to do. I have been e-mailing a lady who won't be able to make it to the workshop, but both she and her sister wanted readings from me, either on the phone or the next time I am the city. Her sister's husband recently just died, and I passed on a couple messages to her just because I felt them so strongly and I wanted them to know. So the lady said she really wants a reading, and that this was the first bit of closure she has ever received, and that she is willing to come in from the island to meet me for an hour. I mean....I don't know. Anyway, I really don't think I have any space in my schedule for any more schedule. I guess I COULD if I absolutely had to, but it would mean I do 4 readings a row which is something I am not a fan of.
But I could do it if I must do it.

But is it right of me to offer this lady a reading? Because I know she is hurting and I know what her husband would say would relieve her a lot, and plus she is willing to come from the islands to see me for just an hour.

I don't know :( Is it right for me to offer her space when I have 9 people on the waiting list?

O_O

ghostandvodka @ 2009-11-11T21:20:00

2009-11-11T03:58:47Z

Well a while back I set myself a totally unrealistic goal. I wanted to do 31 readings in a month (equivellent to one reading a day). It was totally unreasonable to me, who at the time, was just getting back into doing readings after a long lag. I think I did like 3 readings in the month of September alone!

This month I have 22 readings booked and still working my way up. That just shows that anything is possible through the power of INTENT.

Never be realistic with your goals because all you will ever get back is normal, ordinary, and realistic.

Be unreasonable and wonderful and colourful and bright and beautiful and never be afraid to let what you want shine through in EVERYTHING you do from now on.

ghostandvodka @ 2009-11-10T20:59:00

2009-11-10T03:32:56Z

Finally, it's like i can breathe music again. I had been holding my breath for so long. There was such a long time where I just couldn't bare to be interested in music anymore. I loved played piano and making music, but listening was something I couldn't do. When people asked me what I listened to i became one of those people who said "a bit of everything"

but now I can finally start finding and loving music again.

favourite band of the moment (Second place to bright eyes, always)

enjoy :)

ghostandvodka @ 2009-11-10T09:59:00

2009-11-09T17:59:25Z

I think my mom is going to refuse to sleep with me tonight, so I will be left alone to think about all the paranormal activity stuff and not be able to sleep. The last scenes are just so O.O.

I think I am all booked up for Vancouver. I might be able to fit in another two people at the workshop, but that would be pushing it a little bit. So far, the tally goes like this.

Workshop: 10 people :)

Readings: 15

I’ve had to start scheduling phone readings now. And I am okay with it, because its’ about quality not quantity. I rather just have a decent number of readings to do, so that I can do it well, instead of like 20 all squished in, and all of them done in a mediocre way.

You know what I noticed recently? Up till just a month or two ago, it was easy for me to remember people and the basics of what was going on in their life. Not too much detail, but I know it was easy for me to “tap into” it again. But now, that just seems so unthinkable. There are just so many people, and so many lives, it’s hard to even keep track. Sometimes people come back and tell me they’ve had a reading with me before, and it’s hard to really remember them, even though this has never been the case before! I mean, my regulars are fine – I can still remember them.

I just don’t want them to feel like I am getting too “impersonal” because I do care about them. It’s just hard to keep track. I’ve been having so many awkward conversations recently where they are like “Oh do you remember giving me my reading, and you said blab la blab la “ and I am like “…Um…kind of. Not so much.” They have all been understanding so far though, which is nice.

I WANT MY WEBSITE.

I am going to be so heartbroken if some other Malavika comes and takes my malavika.com. It was made for ME.

ghostandvodka @ 2009-11-09T14:40:00

2009-11-08T21:15:05Z

:( paranormal activity scared me for life. it is just so disturbing.

my workshop was so wonderful, and so inspiring for me. I am so excited. It was the most fun I had ever! I napped after, was booked for 3 readings, and then met jennifer for the movie. the 7:30 show was sold out, so we had starbucks and went for the 10pm show. GOD. it was scary.

I slept with my mom.

I am so excited for Vancouver. I've had such great feedback already about my workshop, and I have already been requested to do another one. I am thinking maybe February time and it''s gonna be a two day workshop and please come!

ghostandvodka @ 2009-11-07T09:33:00

2009-11-06T17:34:03Z

3 days grace and The used are in Kamloops on the 20th November. I am SO there. I will be there before you.
I finished the planning for my workshop. Tonight I just need to finish making my poster boards, and prepping for all the fun activities everyone is gonna do, and get my meditation CD's ready.

It is going to be SO much fun.

christmas wishlist
1. www.malavika.com
2. you

ghostandvodka @ 2009-11-06T19:07:00

2009-11-06T01:41:49Z

I started my radio show today. It was SOOOO excitiing. I was very nervous at the start, but towards the end of the hour, I felt more comfortable. Not too comfortable :P But comfortable enough for my first time.

I made lots of silly mistakes when talking, but mostly, I think I spoke clearly and slowly, and the guys said it was a great first show and I am excited and bye!

ghostandvodka @ 2009-11-05T09:31:00

2009-11-04T17:31:31Z

wow, I definitely just FAILED my chemistry test hardcore.

ghostandvodka @ 2009-11-04T22:23:00

2009-11-04T05:03:45Z

My throat is totally swollen and it really feels like my body is breaking down, but emotionally I feel great. A little 'blunt', my edges are a little subdued, but other than that, I am in a good place. My workshop is on Saturday. Yay. Yay. Yay. Yay.

I bought all the supplies today. Everything looks so pretty! Everything is great quality too. Only the best for my peeps! More than anything, I want the experience to be totally enriching for everybody there.

Tomorrow I have:

Chem midterm
Work on Chem lab with Jessica (i wish it was the real jessica!)
Flash dance thing at school (like they did on oprah!) I am soooo involved.
Driving :)
WORKSHOP STUFF
PREP FOR MY RADIO SHOW STARTING ON THURSDAY! WOOOP.

Tyler wanted to hang out before english today. It was weird to see him not dressed up as a nerd and he said it was weird for him to see me not dressed up as a cheerleader. He's aries :) He's Jennifer's boyfriends roommate. I really like them all :) I guess it felt a little strange meeting him for coffee without jen or julien there, but he's a nice guy and we get along.

my throat hurts :(

ghostandvodka @ 2009-11-04T12:49:00

2009-11-03T19:25:47Z

Kamloops workshop this weekend :)

The Vancouver one is totally at capacity. People keep emailing me for readings but I literally have NO time to fit them in. I don't even know if I will have time to eat :P I am up every day starting readings and workshop stuff at 8:00, and working till 8:00 pm. That is a hell of a lot of talking. I didn't go to class today because my throat is literally swollen. I hope it is gone before Saturday :(

I can't say I am not excited.

I AM!

This is literally my dream :$ January 1st, 2009, I made a list of my goals, and this was my biggest one, and here I am doing it. It makes me so excited $:

my throat is so sore :(
I have an in class essay today.

ghostandvodka @ 2009-11-03T09:13:00

2009-11-02T15:44:44Z

ty: go and request california love.
me: you go and do it?!
ty: no, you don't understand. you are significantly better looking than i am.
me: haha!

ghostandvodka @ 2009-11-02T21:40:00

2009-11-02T04:17:35Z

This is just for purposes, to keep me organized. I hope I can make it out of this week alive, especially since I am sick :(

monday:
- Hand in Chem Lab
- Hand in Bio Lab
- Study for Chem Quiz
- Prepare for in class essay.
- Work on Workshop stuff

tuesday:
- Study for math quiz
- Study for English test
- In class essay.
- Study for Chemistry test.
- Study Biology
- Work on workshop stuff
- Buy supplies for workshop.

wednesday:
- Chemistry quiz
- Study for math quiz
- Driving lesson
- Study biology
- Do labs.
- Prep for my radio show.
- Work on workshop stuff

Thursday:
- Math quiz
- RADIO SHOW WOO!
- Work on workshop stuff
- Study biology

Friday:
- Work on workshop stuff

SATURDAY:
KAMLOOPS WORKSHOP
YAY!

ghostandvodka @ 2009-11-02T12:28:00

2009-11-01T19:02:53Z

halloween was so much fun! the kids started coming to our houses around 6:00, so I waited by the door and handed out candy which is the most funnest thing ever because you get to see all the cute babies and aww!
Then MY kids came over, so we all got dressed and went trick or treating. They got lots of candy because they are so cute.
Then I came home and got ready to meet Jennifer at her boyfriends place. It was Jennifer, her boyfriend Julien, and two guys called Tyler and Paul. We played drinking games and then went to "the club".

Lol.

The club. "The Max" It's kinda like the discos you go to when you go to "youth club" But, lots of people were there so it was O.K. We danced a lot. I didn't get drunk, but it was even more fun that way. I did a few shots of pornstars (best thing ever). Then Julien started playing with a toy gun and full on stabbed me in the eye with it. All the make up was gone from one eye. It took me horus to be able to see again. It was awesome. He felt so bad!

Then we walked to Dennys and had breakfast. Tyler and I shared some cheesesticks so it wasn't really breakfast.
Then I came home and passed out and revelled in the glory that is Daylight savings time.

2 readings today, Woop!

ghostandvodka @ 2009-10-31T19:27:00

2009-10-31T02:02:21Z

Whew! My training is over. My radio show starts next thursday! 1:00pm-2:00pm Thursdays. The Malavika Show, bitches. *giggle*

I am excited. The only thing I am nervous about is the technical side of it. There are so many buttons and knobbly things and twisty things I need to know how to use. Yikes. I think it will take a little while before I feel comfortale, but I am okay with that. Thats why I am going to start of with primarily a music show for the first few shows, not much speaking, and then I'll bring in the awesomeness.

After classes were done for the day, I drove with my mom to pick up devaki from school. Then I drove to RedRobin and we had lunch and milkshakes all around. Then I drove D back home, then went to pick up my dad, and I just got home now. LOTS of homework to do tonight.

ghostandvodka @ 2009-10-29T18:45:00

2009-10-29T01:24:01Z

Lately I've been having this strange feeling. I wake up with it. I feel like "my work" in Kamloops is done. It's weird because it didn't feel done for a long time, and then suddenly, it just came to me fast and easily, that it's done. It's done. It was something that held me back from applying to England, because I felt like I still had so much more to do in Kamloops, I felt like I had built up so much out of nothing, and I would be deserting it for somewhere else. But now it isn't like that. I feel like I have done all that I can do in kamloops, in Kamloops. Miss Prescot says its time for me to move my "work" in another place, and I don't know where. It is exciting! It's the next step in my plan for for world domination.

I got my halloween costume. Not Jasmine. A cheerleader. Woo Hoo. I'll take pictures. It's cute.

Updated Schedule

Friday:
12:30 Arrive at Vancouver at 12:30. Check into Hotel. Have lunch with mommy.
3:00 Reading 1
4:00 Reading 2
5:00 Reading 3
7:00 Reading 4

Open for one more reading at around 6 or 7

Saturday:
8:00-2:00pm Manifesting Miracles Workshop
3:00 Open space for a reading?
4:00 Reading 5
5:00 Reading 6
6:00 Reading 7

Saturday most likely closed. MIGHT fit in another one but I doubt it.

Sunday:
8:30: Reading 8
9:30 Reading 9
10:30 Reading 10
11:30 Reading 11

Sunday open till 12:00. Then back to Kamloops.

And I still have two more to schedule two more. Bleh, they are going to have to be phone readings, It will be impossible.

ghostandvodka @ 2009-10-28T09:43:00

2009-10-27T16:43:36Z

I had to laugh at myself when I was on facebook today. I was on some random persons page looking at their wedding photographs, and I remembered someone (perhaps a comedian?) on TV saying “Facebook will drain your soul. You’ll find yourself hours after you first logged on, browsing through a strangers wedding photographs”

Last night was a lot of fun. I went to dinner at Whitespot with Allison, Ben, Jessica, Haley and her boyfriend Mike. I got a chocolate milkshake (Whitespot has the best milkshakes) along with some fettuccine alfredo with chicken. Which I later regretted because after a while, it was just too bland. I should have gotten the orange beef stir fry. We discussed the intense nightlife of Kamloops. Haley asked Mike, “I don’t even know what to wear to a club, what would I wear?” and Mike looked at me and said “What she’s wearing would look good at the clubs.”

And I was like “Dude, I am wearing a long sleeved shirt with a picture of a deer on it.:”

I am going driving today after school. Then I have to call Kristen from Vancouver to ask her about setting up paypal for my workshops. I have now scheduled about 10 readings. It is going to be crazy. Nicolle said I would be able to use the office at the clinic.

I got 95% on my calculus midterm. YAY.

I got….60% on my chemistry midterm. Not so yay. Haha, I DON’T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED.

ghostandvodka @ 2009-10-27T13:52:00

2009-10-26T20:53:28Z

Ok. I am at the "Libe" (library) right now trying to organize Vancouver. Yes, the entire city of Vancouver. I'm going to organize that.

My workshop :)

Friday:
12:30 Arrive at Vancouver at 12:30. Check into Hotel. Have lunch with mommy.
3:00 Reading 1
4:00 Reading 2
5:00 Reading 3

Open for one more reading at around 6 or 7

Saturday:
8:00-2:00pm Manifesting Miracles Workshop
3:00 Open space for a reading?
4:00 Reading 4

Rest of Saturday open

Sunday:
8:30: Reading 5

Sunday open till 12:00. Then back to Kamloops.

So, it already seems pretty busy, but I have open spaces for the people who have not gotten back to me yet. I just sent the email out an hour ago. It's kinda exciting! I know I have at least another 4 readings to schedule in there somewhere.

ghostandvodka @ 2009-10-26T18:28:00

2009-10-26T01:07:35Z

Today has been such a yucky day!

Friday night good and strange. I had a reading after class, which was awesome. But after that I had no plans, and don't get me wrong, I came from the land of NEVER having plans. But, for some reason, Friday was weird. I guess maybe it is because I've been busy for the last few weeks. It didn't help that it felt like I was coming down with something. I napped for a little while. d, Ishaan, and her mom came over for a sleepover, so I hung out with them.

Saturday. I had NO homework to do. I am pretty sure I do, but it feels like very little in comparison to studying for my midterms. Yeah yeah, I KNOW my finals are coming up, hehe. But things seemed to be going in slow motion on Saturday. I was happy on saturday, though. Lots of people signed up for my workshop and readings. I went to watch saw 6 with Jennifer at 7:30. I swear there were hand imprints on my face from having my hands there the ENTIRE movie. After the movie, she dropped me off and went home. Then we both were online and she asked if I wanted to go for coffee or smoething :P So she picked me back up, and we went to Mcdonalds (I know. Everywhere else was closed) and talked and she had a sundae and I had a cheeseburger (it was gross) till just after midnight. Then she drove me home. I went to sleep.

I woke up today feeling gross. I played with Ishaan for the morning. I gave him his bottle and we watched treehouse. I was just feeling so BLEH. Tired, even though I slept in till 10:30. My eyes feel all heavy, my throat is hurting and sigh.

Tomorrow, is my long day. But after class, Haley, Allison and I are going to go to whitespot for dinner. They have the best milkshakes, but I don't know if that's a good idea because of my throat. We decided to go for dinner because we ALWAYS talk abotu food in our last class, so we figured, why NOT!

Omg HALLOWEEEEEN! MUST CARVE PUMPKINS THIS WEEK. YAY! And look for my costume.

Imma be princess jasmine :)

I'm going drivign in an hour. A night time drive. Yay.

ghostandvodka @ 2009-10-25T11:19:00

2009-10-24T17:53:38Z

Some funny quotes:

[D giving herself a reading. She pulls "the lovers"]

Devaki: Omg. I'm going to get a boyfriend!

*Pulls the next card "The king of wands"*

Devaki: Omg. My next boyfriend is going to be a king! Omg! *freaks out*

*Pulls the next card "The queen of wands"*

Devaki: Omg! And he's going to make me a queen! YAY.

---

At the meditation evening:

Solonge: So I was at this meeting with this person who has really bought me so much pain in my life, and I knew this person was sick that day, so I made the meeting last as long I could. You know, there were some things I just 'didn't understand', we had to go over it quite a few times. Haha. Oh, I chanelled my inner bitch.

Omg, I have 9 people registered so far!

ghostandvodka @ 2009-10-24T23:33:00

2009-10-24T05:33:49Z

Devaki giving me a reading.
I have taught her well. Amen.

I did a spread for her. So cute to do baby readings. This deck, if you are wondering, is one that I love but I have not used much. It's the "housewife tarot" and it's just for fun, you know? Matthew got me in when we were in Wichita, for my birthday. It was very sweet because I love collecting different decks that I am drawn to.

Me doing a before-bedtime reading for d.

My vision board.